Such a blue mood.
The room is very silent, but if you’re lucky and you listen closely you can hear faint taps. No rhythm or melody to the taps, just irregular beats. What is going on? What is the reasoning to all this insufferable tapping?
You go left, you go right. No fixed gaze ahold of anything. It’s times like these that you can go mad from pure curiosity. Tap. Tap. Tap. Just when you think it couldn’t get any quieter, it does. Only now it feels as if the whole world has stopped too.
A swig of liquor then to keep the silent pauses from seeming quite so long. But they are long. Five minutes, two hours or possibly all day of these episodes. Tap. Tap. Tap. Even whilst sipping on the moonshine that gaze will never meet mine. The thousand yard stare is reliving moments of our past and days of our future. Oh, how I do hope there is one. Tap. Tap. Tap.
This silence is too much. I have laid my heart out on a silver platter, served with the sharpest titanium steel steak knife I could find laying right beside it. Tap. Tap. Tap. I’m losing it, playing this waiting game. It’s like time has frozen and all I am capable of as to manage this, is biting my lip so hard I pierce the skin. A metallic taste fills my mouth as our eyes finally meet. As I see words begin to formulate themselves I go breathless. I can no longer focus. I feel lifeless. I want to continue but I don’t feel as if I….
My questions to you are: 1. Do you have a trinket that you consider to have positive energy? What is it? Use to have a green C9 Christmas lightbulb I thought always brought me luck.. 2. Name a celebrity that the world would be better off without. The list goes to far on to begin. 3. What was your first job ever? Batman. 4. Favorite superhero?Batman. 5. When did you attend your first party without adult supervision? 16. 6. Do you remember your first email account ever? What was it? Something connected to atx and puppies. 7. Do your parents help you financially how so? No longer. 8. First person to pop into your mind: april 9. Name a song that you can’t stand. Anything from Miley 10. You made it this far HIGH FIVE! Now take a deep breath and amoment to embrace yourself, go look in the mirror and admire your beauty, tell yourself that you are beautiful, strong, and intelligent. Then carry on. No 11. What is the furthest distance that you have been from your parents? Emotionally or physically????